I can't pull myself away from my obsession with hidden worlds.

Watching Hellboy II is rad. A lot of scenes relate to this fantasy other world hidden within our world, back to the cantina scene in Star Wars. A hidden world within our world that has it's own scifi social situations, like bars and underground shopping centers. Star Trek too.

This should explain everything

The nifty nineties

I'm a free bitch baby

Shockingly enough, I can't find my wallet. I had to "retrace" my steps and it was a tough journey. Did I leave it at that party at Tom's house? I remember grabbing my stuff on the way out from a huge stuff pile and thinking to myself, I bet I'm leaving something. No. Because we went to Javiers after and I drunkenly bought a giant shrimp (haha) burrito. Did I leave it at Javiers? No. Because I had hangover brunch with Anney the next morning. And the waitress did a terrible job and tried making up for it by complimenting my wallet. Whatever bitch, $2. So it's in my room. Under everything. OR I might have brought it with me to that catering thing yesterday. I was drunk afterwards, almost left my shoes in Maddies car. So that's a possibility. I hope so, thats pretty easy. Otherwise.. in my room? I don't know. I drank so much last night. I was in a music video for Savages as a dancing slut girl. They supplied the beers and I supplied the drinking. I woke up with morning in my guantanamo baywatch shirt with the lights still on. I hate that.
So where's the fucking wallet? Where's my life going? Where's my sugar?

again, more videos

Major Lazer "Keep it Going Louder" from Eric Wareheim on Vimeo.

amazing

inspiration

thinking of changing my thesis to incorporate my band more. The one thing I wish I were working on all the time is band stuff. I'd love to make us a music video, cd packaging, posters, shirts, website. We deserve it. We are the best.

new cover song special:

stink

I can smell my feet from here.

teach me tiger vid

Not wanting to grow up. Glorification of the teenager.

HOUND DOG

nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

I realize that I need to make a todo list. Because now that my thesis proposal is over I am free, but unfree. I have a ton of work that I put off, but I put it off so hard and put everything I had into my proposal, now I can't begin to even remember what I had to do.
I think looking at the way I waste time actually says a lot about what I'm really interested in. If I can make my "work" reflect the ways I waste time, then all is well.

WAYS I WASTE TIME:
- looking at things on my google reader. it doesn't really matter what things they are. espescially human relations problems on ask.mefi.com. Maybe because I was raised on soap operas or raised in a dramatic situation, I eat up human issues/dramas. Gossip girl. Degrassi. Right now I'm reading this article written by a male high school senior. He had to write 50,000 words for some "write a novel in a month" thing so he decided to write about each of the kids in his senior class. I don't know him or anyone in his class but I'm completely into it and can't stop reading it. It says so much about him and I can't put this fucker down.
ex: "He is a great example of a tool. He is only working out every day of his life and drinks and does illegal things like that to make himself seem really cool, but then he compromises his school work and grades and does terribly in school. He does not care at all with school and could not care less about how he does in school and what he is going to do in the future because he only wants to be muscular and tough, which will be lost when he is in his 60s and will deal with a sorry life and very little success."
this reminds me. I could probably talk about how brilliant this "novel" is for hours. other things I could talk about for hours:
1. simpson porn
2. repo: the genetic opera performance at the clinton st every week
3. waterworld
4. gigli
I think I need an art therapist, but not in the fingerpainting through problems way. In the, let me tell you what I like and you tell me how to make brilliant projects out of that way.

- mocking up ridiculous pictures. This is a tattoo idea for my friend zack.
- drinking, socializing, partying
- working on everything and anything related to my band. This includes googling us and emailing the other members the results, playing shows, restringing my bass, talking about buying a van...
(ps. what if a guys nickname for his girlfriend was "chinese" but she's not chinese. I think I just heard that go down)

So. To Do List:

• email mt tabor dude back asap
• sweetjayne.net site
  
• make video for my 50's class. In order to do that I must talk to someone about getting those videos to work in finalcutpro. this will take forever and can only be done on a weekday during normal hours and I will need headphones and I'll also need to talk to rick.
• mock up some motherfucking opal bottles! this is getting sad and ridiculous. I'm ashamed of myself.
• deposit check
• send back old phone
• get foodstamps bs set up
• fix my bass
• cr motorsports
• give slappe form i should give him
• write a thing asking to check out equipment over break
• print dale's ids
• figure out the friends episode breakdown
  
• write back to shelby in olympia about shows